Black love (another poem

 Black love (another poem)

Black love 

Is the rhythm 

Is the vibe

I want it 

I truly want it….

You can’t force 

You can’t gaslit

Let black love comes naturally….

Let it be a revolution…

Cos who told you 

That white love is better?

Who told you goin outside 

Of a melaninated soul 

Was way better?

Who told you?

Ain’t nothin out there….

Don’t you know 

Black love is under attack 

Everyday 

Somebody is tryin to 

Make black love look whiter…

But it’s still dark chocolate…

For a fact 

A black man and a black woman

Has devoted to one another 

Since the beginnin…

I love to say 

First Adam and Eve…

First parents….

First couple…

They created an original love story 

Way before white folks came around….

Now it’s still here 

However 

It’s full of sickness…

Been colonized…

I can honestly say 

That 

Black love is under 

Terror attacks

Cos the system is 

Still breakin the black family 

Which means divide 

Which mean the system has black genders 

Fightin each other constantly…

Like placin blame on each other 

Instead of the white man….

He did that,

He did put cruelty into our brains 

To make black people hate each other…

While still stealin our shit….

Propaganda got us downplayin 

Black love to cheat with the other races…

Oppression places lustful thoughts 

Into our minds and becomes 

Baby daddy’s baby mama’s 

And why is that culture?

Why does it have to be a hookup?

There are music on the radio 

About sex callin out each other 

Names, twerkin 

And kids listenin to those inappropriate 

Lyrics cos of their parents….

Where is the healthy black love?

It’s not always on the internet…

It’s in the household….

Between a black couple who really love 

Each other….

You can admire a 

Melanated relationship on social media 

However we don’t even know 

Their business…

Some has put it all out there in the 

Online streets….

Black love should be intimate 

Black love should private and show and tell 

Should be balance

For the black singles who 

Want to be with a black partner,

And only black partner,

Don’t give up….

I can tell you 

Anythin is possible..

You deserve a beautiful everlastin marriage 

With children of your own…

Beautiful black family…

There’s nothin wrong….

Never too late 

Never too old 

Never too young 

Black love is a rare thing….

I heard somebody says,

“Black love is revolutionary”

I’m not sure 

Who 

Yet it’s true….

We shouldn’t let 

Black love to be 

Deeply erased 

At all…

Cos we need 

Our black families to be 

Alive and well….

They keep pushin 

All kinds of media 

About interracial relationships….

And this is one of the things I don’t like 

At all…

It’s why 

I post black love 

So much 

Cos it’s too important 

Call me racist if you want….

But black love has 

That natural rhythm 

Between a black man and a black woman…

They adore each other 

He’s masculine 

She’s feminine 

They have always been a 

Forever couple….

I don’t need 

To hear a white man is better 

I don’t need 

To hear a white woman is better….

There’s no need for a fuckin speech 

Sayin skin color doesn’t matter…

When oppression plays a role in 

Domination….

Black love 

Can heal 

Black love 

Is unconditional 

Black love 

Feels like freedom….

And I want black couples 

To have that…

Unapologetically 

No permission….

To be real with you 

We need that desperately 

Cos too many have given up….

Some didn’t…

I won’t have doubts 

I have high hopes on 

Black love…🫶🏾✊🏿❣️💙💯🖤♥️💕🥰©️Kai C. 8-21-26

A “dream girl” theory

 A “dream girl” theory 

How do you know 

If she’s your dream girl?

How do you know in your heart 

That she’s the one?

Cos what if she wears a mask?

I’m sorry to ruin your fantasies 

Sometimes we must be realistic 

And no, I’m not jealous….

Do men know what they really want?

Are they actually sure?

Not all men knew what they want 

They confused themselves…

I know they think logically 

However sometimes 

Logic doesn’t make sense….

Again she could wear a mask, 

Another face of a different character….

Beauty isn’t everythin….

People forget kindness and loyalty 

That makes love so special….

Cos a dream girl is suppose to be 

Beautiful with the kindest heart on the planet….

Someone who cares with nobody’s lookin…

Someone who you can trust…

Most times I heard that 

A lot of guys have fumbled with a good woman…

That good woman is your dream girl….

Your dream girl with intelligence and softness 

Who stood beside you when you’re at your worst..

A dream girl who is ride and die by your side 

That should be your dream girl…

Not a placeholder,

Not a type of woman who can build you up 

Y’all should build together….

Y’all both should make sacrifice and make 

Hard decisions for each other….

Honestly 

I started to think 

A “dream girl” doesn’t exist 

Cos 

She might not know 

What you expected…

What if she was a mean girl 

A bully underneath all the shades of 

Makeup?

What if she fake all the good behavior 

Just to get what she wants?

And you don’t even know it 

Cos she’s your peace….

I’m not sayin 

She’s perfect 

But her cruel soul is intentional 

Her actions might manipulate 

Your mind….

I’ve seen men 

Leavin their wives 

For their mistresses 

In their minds 

They’re their dream girls…

Yet their preferences treated them 

The same way they treated their former spouses…

And I don’t think 

There’s no dream boy either 

Cos he might wear a mask also…

People need to be careful 

With their fragile hearts and silly minds 

We could be all hopeful 

However 

Usually highest expectations 

And sweet assumptions can 

Bring a deep disappointment 

To our face, to our heartbeats 

We have crave for love 

And romance and great 

Companionship for too long…

We don’t expect tears, frowns,

And pain…

We want someone to love 

And be loved in return unconditionally….

Men want love 

Just as much as women do…

They have that dream girl 

In their minds….

We have the dream guy on 

Our brains….

And how about lovin 

Ourselves first 

Before you go lovin on 

Someone else…

 Not every person 

You fall in love with 

Is your dream person….

I admit that I love the idea 

Of a dream girl, 

The dream girl theory….

To some people 

She exists 

Though keep in mind 

She could be clownin

You behind your back 

Especially when 

You’re already fallin for her…

💯❣️©️Kai C 8-23-26

Exes be comin back

 Exes be comin back 

Exes be comin back 

and it’s annoyin…

They didn’t want their partners 

In the first place….

Can’t be fooled…

It’s a fuckin game…

Exes go down 

On their knees 

And cry pleadin 

For their former lovers 

To come back together 

Knowin damn well 

They asked for this….

They asked their old sweethearts 

To disappear…and when their ancient loves 

Moved on to someone, 

Now all of a sudden 

Exes get pissed off….

Why the jealous?

Do they really think their past sweeties 

Will stay forever waitin at your corner 

Like an idiot?

Do they really?

Who taught them that?

Cos nobody is waitin for them 

Unless they are delusional….

Exes be callin 

Askin how they are doin 

Or go to their house 

Like can we talk….

No….

FUCK NO…

stay the fuck away 

From me…..

Exes fake memory loss 

Of their wrong doin 

Of their wrong choices….

They know 

They tried to escape 

Their own accountability…

Don’t fall for the bull shit

Sometimes gettin back together 

Is a scam….

Cos a lot of exes never learn their lessons….

It’s why you have a 

Block party by yourself 

And with your friends….

You need peace 

In your soul 

In your mind….

Wisdom can remind 

You that real love doesn’t mean 

You have to lose yourself 

For anybody who doesn’t care….

Real love means 

Somebody who doesn’t want you 

To lose yourself….someone will 

Accept you for you…..

Sometimes 

Exes like being true to yourself 

However they can still break your heart 

And tryin to run back to your arms 

With those words, I miss you…

I hope you go ewww

Cos exes are gross

They can be like 

Sloppy seconds 

Or somethin else….

They have no right 

To be in touch with you

Or anybody that they fumbled…

It’s your choice to 

Have a friendship with them 

Or not….

Yet don’t let those emotions 

To come back after years or 

Months of breakup…

Trust is too broken…

Intentions did a lot of damage 

Which cause a heartbeat 

Too much trauma…

It’s why 

You need to move on 

And heal for good…..

You blocked that history 

And don’t let them come back….

Exes realized 

It’s too late that they lost a good one…

They love them now, 

But not in the past….

Yet 

It’s not love….

It’s a thing that the exes 

Felt in their chests that 

A ghost of love has arrived…

Speakin a language called silence…

Exes missed a lover’s voice….

Exes missed a lover’s touch…

And didn’t I say 

Exes have no right to miss 

Their old boyfriends/girlfriends….

Formal lovers 

Ain’t thinkin about them 

Anymore….karma gave them 

Absences….their desperation made 

Them chase in their heavy ugly sobs 

For a second chance…for the hope of 

Happy endings with them like in the movies….

This isn’t the movies…

Exes be comin back 

Cos they see their so called 

Significant others happy…

They can’t stand 

They expect tears 

Leftover heartache 

Nope….

They be like 

I’ve been tryin to call you 

Please come back 

You’re my baby….

Ignore your exes completely 

Walk away 

Don’t let them grab your hand 

Let them whisper 

Let them say I will get you back no matter how…

You just act like they ain’t there…

Cos their words mean shit…

Their actions mean shit…

Your new man 

Your new woman 

Will come into the picture 

Like hello what can I do for you?

Cos clearly 

My partner is busy right now….

Exes need to back off 

Far far away 

They need to go back to their sidepieces

After all, 

I thought they were happy….

Thought their fantasies were full of joy…

I wonder why…

Cos 

Exes be comin back….

They still think they can control 

The situation…don’t ever let yourself 

Slip into their traps..

Understand this,

They never love you 

They’re just lessons..

Be grateful that you learned the hard way…

💯©️Kai C. 8-23-26

Ode to self hate black women (edited poem)

 Ode to self hate black women

Ode to self hate black women

In the comments section….

Y’all could be bots or real 

Humans who encourage a 

White man to get a rifle 

Just to kill a brotha…a man 

Who looks like y’all…

Have y’all ever thought 

About your fathers?

Your grandfathers? 

Your great grandfathers?

Your uncles?

Your cousins?

Even your grown sons?

If a healthy male figure 

Who is black like y’all  

In your life saw that 

Or heard y’all say those 

Things or maybe you don’t 

Have one…

All y’all know is white men 

Y’all truly believe in your soul 

They’re more romantic than 

Black men….

The fact y’all wanna be a 

White woman, so called damsel in 

Distress….

Cos y’all see that shit 

In movies….

I used to have 

Propaganda and 

Environment to brainwash 

Me…. I used to think 

Black boys were ugly 

Cos I saw white boys 

Surroundin me….

For some reason 

I didn’t think there’s nothin 

Wrong with it 

But deep down 

The word of mouth 

Places a heavy truth 

Upon my chest bone….

I didn’t know 

I was self hatin me

I didn’t know anythin 

About white supremacy 

At the time…

Racism has me internalized 

To hate my own brown shade…

I always thought 

Skin color didn’t matter…

I did like black boys 

Though I have liked white guys

More….

Yet I didn’t encourage 

White guys to kill a black boy

Like y’all…..

When black history 

Reveals itself 

And psychology has opened my eyes 

And interracial relationships showed its

True colors..

I realize it was dead wrong to say 

Those things about black men 

Black boys…

It took a while to notice that 

Their handsomeness

Their kindness 

Their greatness

And that we’re on the same slave ships 

Together….

That white man has made us 

Hate each other so deeply….

And if i didn’t know about 

Black history,

And if internalized self hate gets stronger

I’d be like one of y’all 

Y’all self hate black women

If y’all truly think 

Black men are ugly 

What do y’all think of 

Yourselves?

Y’all have melanin skins 

Y’all have similar reflections 

Y’all both have culture 

Why do we have to divide?

Why do we have to listen to that white man?

He ain’t nothin but trollin…

Our wrong choices 

Are followin him….

A lot of us knew what we were 

Doin…

Others have no idea….

And this is why racism needs to be talked 

About….cos it comes with generational curses 

And mental illnesses….

It comes with whitewashin situations 

Like y’all who prop a white man who needs 

A fake protection from black men 

Cos in his mind they’re dangerous…

I’m glad 

I’m not one of y’all 

Again y’all could be bots 

Tellin him to get an equalizer 

To shoot the brothas in the street 

While datin a black woman….

Cos 

Ode to self hate black women

I wish y’all could stop speakin 

Negative to yourselves 

Stop internalizin 

Stop waitin for a white man 

To call you beautiful…

Not all black men are 

Monsters…just cos 

Y’all had a bad experience 

With them, it doesn’t mean they are 

All terrible….

Racism did that to us….

It’s still brainwashin….

How to break this cycle of 

I don’t need a man 

Is to learn your history 

Learn psychology 

Be an observer 

Look within yourself 

Ask yourself 

Why do I hate black men?

Why do I hate myself?

There’s nothin wrong with 

Being black….

It’s the society that thinks 

Ass backwards….

I didn’t ask hard questions 

To myself 

I had flashbacks of 

My younger self 

Sayin I shouldn’t say 

Cruelty to black boys…

It wasn’t nice…

What if I say cruelty 

To myself?

And when you learn about what 

Racism did to us,

You truly recognize that 

Our race has the lowest

Self esteem….

We still have brothas and sistahs

Askin to sit at white folks’ table….

I’m sorry 

Black boys 

Black men 

For callin y’all ugly 

Y’all ain’t ugly 

Y’all are debonair 

Y’all deserve to live a full life 

Y’all matter…

I don’t think whitewashin is an excuse 

For my mean words…

Though it is…

We as black people

Has involve ourselves into 

Proximity of whiteness….

For the self hate black women 

There are consequences of 

Your bad influences on a white man 

To slaughter your own people 

Just to be close to him

Y’all do realize y’all are involvin

Yourselves in your genocide, right 

Y’all just don’t care about 

About your demise….

That’s really sad….

Y’all are willin 

Murder your nephews 

Your brothers 

Your friends 

The black men who loves black women

The black men y’all don’t know…

Deep down 

Yall know damn well 

They ain’t violent 

But y’all chose an enemy 

Who is envious of black men….

I bet y’all don’t even know 

That…..

I hope y’all don’t tell 

Your white boyfriends to kill 

Black men in real life…

Like I said 

Y’all could be ai 

Typin your hate for black men 

Like it’s a next level of 

Self hate,  

How it turns into an agenda….

Y’all don’t see that 

This white guy is usin

Black women to agree with him…

He’s trollin….

He said he’s afraid 

Afraid of what?

✊🏿💯©️Kai C. 8-16-26

I don’t like callin the black person a white supremacist…

 I don’t like callin the black person a white supremacist…

I don’t like callin the black person a white supremacist…

but the way he or she’s actin like a slaveowner 

Back in the 1600s, creeps me out….

This is what happens when colonization has invaded 

Melaninated minds way too much….

Black people have started to pick up nasty European 

Habits…especially their energy…

It’s quite disturbin….

Usin talkin points of a white man,

They said there’s no racism 

But my people are actin like him…

My people is killin their own race 

Cos of him….

Look at our Stockholms

Look at our PTSD 

We’re still mental slaves lovin our massa 

Not realizin white folks keep lynchin us 

In the woods….

A black person who acts white 

And there are many levels of actin white 

Meanin a black mind is so grained into whiteness…

Where he or she could genocide his or her own people….

Which is quite frightenin and unfortunate…

This is the same person who called out 

On runaway slaves…

The same person who became an fbi agent 

To detriment the black organization….

And I never wanna call a black person

A white supremacist….

A black soul who turned into a fork tongue 

With a belt whippin black backs out of hate….

All in the name of white Jesus…

Yet a colonizer would approve this….

A colonizer would say, “good boy”

Or “good gal”

He said “torture your own people”

Why do you think he created so called 

Black on black crime? 

Why do you think he placed us in the slums

That breeds violence?

This is the kind of genocide he planned in 

His agenda book?

You need to ponder 

The reasons why 

There are hoods and projects….

Why are black people in poor urban areas?

And you see 

Black kids are pickin up bad behaviors 

From their parents, from their passed down generations

It was a white man’s biggest plan….

To place a mass destruction on the black community….

We’re pickin up his bad habits to 

Slaughter ourselves and our race….

We’re becomin that ugly version that 

We fear….

Sometimes a mask can fool you 

An activist can be all for black power 

Though behind closed doors 

Leader is actin so white to the point 

Where he or she can scam her people….

Self hate will turn you 

Into a white supremacist….

You made up an oppression 

Towards yourself…

Sayin you hate your black skin

You hate your hair 

You let yourself deeply bleach your 

Heart cos propaganda raised you 

And your family members didn’t help 

Your self esteem….they hate themselves 

Too….

I don’t like witnessin that 

I don’t like seein you as a brotha or sistah 

Becomin any kind of a white supremacist…

Yes there are different types….

One who kills their own race

One who treats their people like slaves 

One who acts like a white man all the way 

And approve that lynchings are okay….

In my opinion 

A black person who acts like the kkk

With a confederate flag bandanna 

With nazi swatika, a stolen symbol from Egypt 

Hangin around with those white boys 

A black person said white power….

So lost, 

A black maga who adores trump….

I stay farther away from him or her….

Cos I don’t like callin black person a

White supremacist….

I don’t have to talk about it 

Yet I have observed it….

Sambo coon then black white supremacist…

A hood over the head,

What if he or she watched strange fruit in real life 

And felt nothin? 

No pain, no tears, no sense of being black in this world…

Cos whiteness got full of melaninated being….

The whole thing…

😢💔💯✊🏿©️ Kai C. 8-21-26

Our love never dies

 Our love never dies

Our love never dies

Even when world stops

Breathin, even when the 

Sun stops glowin,

I always be with you 

Even if the universe stops 

Speakin, I won’t leave 

Your heart…cos I like to 

Believe love never ends….

Our love never dies…

We may pass on from our bodies 

Though our souls continue to 

Intertwine with each other 

Every lifetime….

I enjoy this thought…

I manifest our story written somewhere 

In our dreams….

We’re twin flames 

Knowin 

Acknowledgin

Rememberin

We don’t die..

We become another two vessels 

Fallen in love…

Our minds have no signs of 

Departure….

Our love never dies…

It’s not death….

We don’t split

We find our way back 

Together 

Like fitted puzzles….

Stars know our names

Our thoughts 

Our tears….

My soul told me 

You’re my safe haven 

You said I’m your angel 

And I can fly you up high….

A fairytale we created within 

Our heartbeats 

Tellin the world we belong 

With one another…

Some don’t believe in destiny 

Some are envy

Some tried to break us apart…

We fought to the depths 

For each other…

We’re husband and wife 

Soulmates in ancestral realm 

We keep runnin

Into each other again and again 

Do you see our strength?

It never tears….

Cos our love never dies…

We never die…

It’s too strong, too deep…

Society says,

“You can’t let go 

You pass away with the one 

You love.”

❣️©️Kai C. 8-20-26