A regret turns to i love her

 A Regret turns to i love her

A Regret turns to i love her

After a split, 

You become more obsessed 

Thinkin about her words

Her warnings 

Her broken heart lovin you 

But you don’t actually love her 

You miss control and games 

That’s all it is…

You never acknowledge a

Thing about love, 

You gaslit that word, 

You put so much manipulation 

Into that syllable….

and brought tears to her eyes 

You broke her

Later on 

You’re sorry…

It’s too late 

Remorse ain’t real 

You stood there 

Watchin her soak in pain….

And now 

You’re speakin to 

Her absence 

Like a dream will never become 

Too real ever again 

Cos you fumbled her…

You fumbled her out of 

Your grasp….

Guilt sustained your soul 

Misery in your eyes 

You ain’t happy 

You can’t live without her….

She vanished 

Out of your sight 

That’s what you asked for, 

Right?

Now you’re searchin for her 

You want to come back…

Cos 

Your ass is lonely….

You shouldn’t push 

Your dream girl away…

She’s thrivin 

She’s buildin

She’s married to a good man 

Who takes care of her soul 

Have beautiful children 

Runnin around….

Here you are

Sayin 

That should have been my wife

And kids…

Well someone took your dream woman 

And married her 

If you haven’t broken her heart 

This wouldn’t happen in the first place…

You wouldn’t be sayin 

I should have 

And what if…

You lost the chance 

You lost the right 

Then 

You began to feel her 

After she left 

After she walked out 

Now 

You love her 

Now 

You want her to come back 

Into your life 

You said you will change 

She can’t trust you 

Anymore….

She waited and waited 

She got tired 

So she disappeared completely….

You tried to chase her in 

Every woman, but she’s not 

Close, nowhere near…

Let her go, 

Sir…

❣️💯©️Kai C. 4-7-26

Jesse

 Jesse 

How do you know if 

He raped a white woman?

Like how do you know?

He was disabled, he never even 

Understood what sex is…

And you motherfuckers 

Thought he murdered 

and raped some white lady…

He doesn’t know what’s goin on…

But y’all lynched him 

Y’all burned him 

and cut his body into party gifts….

I’m sure there are more black people

With disabilities has been hung  

On pools, by street lamps, and 

Of course..yet these stories are usually 

Buried underneath the perfect image 

Of America….whitenin out their voices 

As they’re just long time ago….

I wonder if Ida B. Wells 

knows this story about 

Jesse 

Jesse Washington 

He was a disabled 

And black man 

He may not comprehend 

What was goin on around him….

I bet he was scared…

Traumatized….

I know 

He’s not a killer….

I know he might have a brain 

Of a child….

He was 17 

Growin into young man 

That time around 

He wouldn’t know where he would 

Go if he has the chance to live life fully….

Who knows…

White mob 

Took that away from him…

I wonder what his relatives are sayin

When they heard about his horrific passin….💯✊🏿©️ Kai C. 4-6-27

White folks doesn’t like

 White folks doesn’t like 

White folks doesn’t like 

Being told what to do….

But they can tell us 

What to do….

The nerve, 

The nerve of motherfuckers

 This is why black people 

Started to smack the blood fire 

Out of their mouths….

They started to whoop their ass 

They started to fuck them up 

This time…

And I’m lovin it…

I’m lovin how we challenge 

Them, cos they have no 

Business to boss black people 

Around in the first place….

The nerve of them, 

They ain’t superior….

Minority nations ain’t 

Superior….

They never like us to challenge 

Them in game….

They will always use any kind of 

Weaponization just to keep us 

In our “place”

White folks 

Will always keep us 

From fightin back 

I would love to take them 

Back to their original home 

Caucasus mountains 

Or the caves 

Somewhere without any resources 

Cos they bring too much violence 

And colonization to this Mother Earth….

Disrespectin the mama nature….

I would volunteer to do 

So, but I can’t….

I couldn’t 

Cos who would help me 

To this task?

Nobody….

Plus 

Karma is takin care of them 

Look at their extinction 

Respectfully….

And if I’m mean 

In this piece 

I don’t care about 

Feelings…I want you 

To see the truth…my job 

Is to give white race 

A mirror 

Of unhumanly abuse

That we see throughout 

History….

I’m not the only 

One who represents

A full scope of 

Their reflection 

In my poems 

There are comedians 

With jokes and facts 

They are scholars 

With books of debunkin the 

False narratives 

Sayin white people ain’t explorers 

They were looters, and thieves 

Cos white folks 

Never like the real world 

They fell in love with 

Delusions….

They hate discussin

Racism but they invented it 

To harm others who don’t look like 

Them….

It’s their survival practice 

However 

It’s slippin away 

From their grasp

They know it 

They know their time is up…..

They been busy 

Tryin to breathe

Tryin to make more white babies 

As much as they can….

Though the declination 

Sits still in their households….

White folks 

Never like that at all….

Cos they’re afraid 

They should have thought 

About kind and generous 

To others instead of takin over the world 

Plus the world ain’t even theirs to begin 

They came last…

It was a melaninated world 

In fact, it still is….

They just polluted the life out of it….

✊🏿💯©️ Kai C. 4-3-26