Tonea Nicole Miller(Nikki)

 Tonea Nicole Miller (Nikki)

This is why i feel like 

Ida B. Wells 

This is why my soul 

Vibin Billie holiday 

When it comes to 

Black people 

Swingin from a tree…

They don’t hang themselves

They don’t have a ladder 

No chair 

We never take ropes 

With us….

I heard a black woman 

Got lynched in 

Miami….she was goin to 

Juneteenth celebration 

And of course 

It wasn’t mainstream…

It was local…

Black Floridians 

Shook their heads 

Mad as fuck 

But this is the south 

They have known this…

Things didn’t change 

Racists

Did that on the down low 

And somebody recently told 

Me that i should change the subject 

Another reason why 

I never stop writin 

This cos my people are being 

Harmed by racial violence 

They’re tryin to get me to 

Ignore that but I wanna  

Write about it cos 

There’s always goin to be a 

Warnin, there’s always goin to 

Be a tragedy especially when it’s not 

Broadcast on the national news….

We heard it on social platforms 

News clips and no this isn’t AI….

her name is 

Tonea Nicole Miller 

She didn’t carry a ladder 

Not a chair 

Not a fuckin rope….

Cops are lyin 

Cops covered up 

And her family is cryin

Up a storm….

Strange fruit 

Never leave bare…

It stays 

And black poets like myself 

Will always write poems 

About the bloody hands of 

America 

Not to benefit black pain 

In a bad way….

But to have black people To 

Understand…

And to encourage them to fight 

Back 

Cos this is violence…

Raw violence 

It’s not a forgivable mistake….

White folks 

Especially in the down south 

They wanted to kill you….

They wanted to feel like Jim Crow all over again…

You can’t say 

Skin color doesn’t matter 

When we got a target on our black spines…

Every time unexpectedly 

Expectedly 

This is America 

And being black in America 

Is where we as black people 

Are mindin our business 

Somehow not on racism’s watch….

We do and try live our best lives 

As much as we can 

Til atrocities come to visit again…

I don’t wanna sound negative 

And sad 

But this is realistic….

Tonea didn’t have to die 

She doesn’t deserve to pass away…

I blame the system…

And we’re the victims of it…

And lynchings 

Are still a major role  

We don’t see it…

Again 

It’s a secret…

However we know….

I give her family and her friends 

A lot of sympathy…

My condolences go out to them 

Nobody deserves to lose a loved one 

At all….

😢🤬✊🏿💯©️Kai C. 6-24-26

Lift every chair

 Lift every chair and swing....

Let those ears ring ass whoopin...

Harmonize fuck around and find out...

Lift oh just lift every chair...

Y'all better leave us alone...

Have y'all learned from Montgomery?

We lift every chair and smash y'all 

To the ground....y'all gonna learn today mind your business.. 

Don't ever ever fuck with us anymore...

Or we will lift that chair.. 

And swing your ass to the middle of next week…

✊🏾💯©️ Kai C. 6-24-26 

I wanted love so badly

 I wanted love so badly 

I wanted love so badly…

I lost my head…..

I listen to my heart all the time…

It keeps breakin…..

Cos I wanted a fairytale…

I wanted romance 

But somebody turned away…

Discarded my butterflies…

I can’t make him love me…

I wanted him to change his mind 

Yet there’s no hope….

I thought love has walked away from me 

Actually it was the opposite,

The heavy disappointment is tellin me 

He’s not the one….

He never was…

But,

I stay 

And stay

Waitin for him to spin his heart around…

Cos I wanted love so badly…

I wanted him to love me, too….

He couldn’t, 

He can’t,

Not like that…

He loves somebody else….

I stopped 

Lingerin 

It took me a long time 

To wake up….

If I was patient for too long 

My heartache would sink me in deep…

I’d be cryin all the time 

Maybe not cry 

But bitter…

Cos I wouldn’t know how to get over 

A man who doesn’t want me….

This type of obsession can ruin my health….

How much love did I want?

How badly did I crave?

Desperation has a name for it….

Honestly 

To be real with myself 

No man is worth it….

If he doesn’t love me, 

If he doesn’t see me,

He doesn’t value me….

Women like myself 

be lying to themselves 

About we’re goin to be together 

Forever…got all hopes up 

Til we realized 

These are Mr. wrongs….

They showed who they are 

Somehow true colors went over our heads…

When we consume into a relationship 

Like fools

Not knowin it’s toxic….

We fight and defend with a passion

That men’s souls are not red flags….

Cos we wanted love so badly….

But we have to use wisdom 

And be extra cautious with our hearts 

Before we fall in love…….

There are too much Fakeness 

In the world….sometimes 

We have to guard ourselves 

And go slow, 

I need to remember that….

I have to sustain that thought in my mind 

Cos I usually rush like terrible habits….

I need to practice 

To go slow

To become wiser

I don’t need to harden my heart 

That much….

Be kind 

Be honest 

Be a good friend 

Love is a big word 

Full of verbs 

And I must be careful….

✊🏿💯©️Kai C. 6-24-26