Love me out of pity? Why?

 Love me out of pity? Why?

Love me out of pity? Why?

I don’t want that…

Who says I need a pity party?

Cos I have a disability 

And I can’t do things…

What makes you think 

You can love me when you 

Don’t really love me at all?

I’m not understandin that….

First of all,

Don’t act like 

My heart is disabled….

My heart can fall hard….

Was it a bet? 

Was it a challenge?

Am I a test?

I’m a human being 

And I got feelings 

You seem to forget that….

I’m not a game…

You love me 

Cos you feel sorry for me…

Like the universe made a mistake…

You’re actually shallow…

How dare you….

So all this romance

Was fake?

All this sweet words and actions 

Is just pretend?

What kind of guy are you?

 

You got a lot of nerve 

To tell me you knew what this was…

No, motherfucker

I didn’t….

In fact, don’t bother to talk 

To me ever again….

You don’t wanna 

Be my man in the first place 

Anyway…..it was a trick….

And you reap what you sow….

I bet you heard that before…

Don’t say 

You’re sorry 

You did mean it….

Go ahead and be with 

Your new girlfriend….

You said 

She’s better

You love her 

Not out of pity….

you might end up 

Tellin guys not to date me 

Cos you think I’m not 

A girlfriend/wife type…

In your mind 

You pity me 

And handicapped women 

Can’t love

Also unattractive 

You might tell them lies

I hope they won’t fall for them…

I hope they think for themselves…

One of them

Might love me not out of pity…

Might not care what the society thinks….

If that happens,

Maybe someone might love you 

Out of pity

Cos of your cruelty….

Cos of your ugly….

The same way you love me

Out of pity….

Then you’ll remember how you treated me…

How you faked your love

You wore a mask of a soulmate…

You loved me out of pity…

Now I know why…

It was a manipulation…

You never loved me…

Plus you gave me 

Conditions….at the time 

I didn’t know what you mean 

By that…like they were dumb 

Rules to boost your ego….

You were rude

You told your friends 

I was bossy…

You hurt my feelings 

Too many times….

I left 

I erased everythin about you….

You don’t love a person 

Out of pity

Pity is just another way 

Of givin sympathy for someone 

Who has disability 

Or you think this person 

Is borin and ugly….

Not knowin the real thing 

From the inside and out 

You’re judgin a book by its cover….

You never read the whole story….

You just ignore peace

And broad chaos beneath 

The good conversations….

You started to like the person 

Yet you still chose to keep 

A facade….

That’s what you did to me…

Consequences will make you 

Realize I don't need pity….

You came to your senses 

That I wanted someone to love

Me back…to love me for me…..

Lovin someone out of pity 

Is all too wrong…

You don’t really love the person 

At all…you don’t love yourself 

Either…maybe you should give 

Your own self a pity party instead 

With balloons of misery and loneliness…

And cake that says you’re lonely…

Cos you did this to yourself….💔💯©️ Kai C. 8-27-25

I don’t wanna marry you Cos of your wheelchair

I don’t wanna marry you 

Cos of your wheelchair 

I don’t wanna marry you 

Cos of your wheelchair….

I mean you’re a nice person 

And all, but I just can’t…

What would people say?

They might ask me 

Am I your caregiver?

Am I a help?

Or am I usin you for Money?

I’m sorry 

I can’t marry a lady who can’t walk…

It was fun at last 

Yet I need someone who doesn’t 

Have a seat on daily basis…

I don’t wanna be a male nurse 

Nor an aide….

You’re a cripple woman…

You can’t make love…

I’m not goin to carry you in my arms 

For the rest of my life….

Your wheels bother me….

I wouldn’t allow my future children 

To be around wheelchair access…

I won’t marry you 

I tried to love you….

Please don’t cry 

~

I didn’t ask you to be 

My caregiver 

I asked you to love me 

For me…my own character 

My wheelchair doesn’t define 

Me for who I am….mobile helps 

Me to go everywhere i go….

You’re an ableist…

You called me cripple 

If you don’t wanna marry 

Me, then you should have thought 

About not playin games with my heart 

In the first place….

Take your boxes of your shit 

And go….

Since you don’t love me…

Meanwhile I have supported your dreams…

I was there on your bad days…

And this is how you betrayed me….

Cos you want to marry a woman who can walk 

Well I hope you find what you’re lookin for….

I really do….

But do me a favor 

Don’t dial my number 

To text 

To call 

While your happiness turns into a 

Battleground….

I hope you find a woman who can walk 

Is sweet and kind geniunely….

I hope she doesn’t find out that 

You’re a fool who dumped your girlfriend 

Cos of her wheelchair….

Yet let her find out 

Karma has a way of intimidatin you…

She’s no way to fuck with….

When I rose high,

You would wish you wouldn’t say those words…

You would wish you would want to take them back….

I’m goin to live without you….

Plus 

I don’t wanna marry you 

Anyway cos of your true colors….

I have stayed hopin you changed 

Though You never did….

Thank you for the 

Revelation of your real feelings 

And who you truly are….

You worried about 

My wheelchair…

It doesn’t look good for 

Your image….

Appearances are more 

Important than 

Real love….

Money is way better 

Than a personality…

If you believe in god,

God will study your soul

Through cracks….

If universe can bring you 

A woman that walks

Then don’t be disappointed 

When she acts ugly towards you….

You want a wife who walks…

One day too late 

You realize this is shallow of you…

You regret that you listened to your pride 

And the wheelchair was the problem for your 

Picture perfect luxury….

It’s not my fault that I was born this way…

It’s not my fault that I have to use my mobility 

For the rest of my life….

And you told me I can’t make love…

You never have intimacy with me in bed 

So how do you know?

You’re ignorant 

And I don’t date guys who are so

Ignorant….

~ 

I’m sorry 

I apologized 

For what I said to your face 

Years ago….

I saw a photo of 

You and your husband 

With a baby…

That could be us 

But I was an idiot…

I called you cripple

I worried about your wheelchair….

I can’t find a lady who walks 

Instead I find loneliness 

Strollin in on me…

Oh, who am I talkin to?

I guess I’m havin a conversation 

With myself….

I wished for this….

My baby girl blocked me

I have no right to call her that….

Look at her 

Her husband found her 

He didn’t worry about her wheelchair 

He loves her for her…

and I failed 

And i took a L…

This is what I deserve…

I said I didn’t wanna marry her 

Cos of her wheelchair….

I cared deeply about 

My outer looks….

I searched for validation in 

People’s thoughts of me…

And where did I landed?

A solitude I didn’t ask for 

Though consequences lead me 

There….if I should turn back time,

I wouldn’t take her for granted….

I would have appreciated her….

I dated an ai girl 

She ain’t her…

I don’t get to miss her 

But oh my baby girl

Please come back to me 

I value your worth now…

I changed 

I love you 

It’s not about your wheelchair 

Not about your disability

Anymore…

It’s about who you are 

And I’m a fool….

I’m a fool who lost a beautiful treasure…

Your husband is one lucky man…💯💔❣️©️ Kai C. 8-26-26

Arabs cut black penises off

 Arabs cut black penises off 

Arabs cut black penises off…

To tell them don’t rape their wives

But they turned African women into sex slaves…

How’s that work?

This is way before a white man came into the picture…

I wonder if he saw this practice in Islam…

And thought hmmm…

He might say I can do that too…

I can cut a negro’s phallus off, also…

I will do an experiment, put it in a jar 

For the science lab….

He might of watch the Arabs who sliced black genitals 

And black men cried…

He might take notes of Arabs’ evil geniuses….

Europeans and Arabs are both cruel…

They are jealous…..

They’re seriously jealous of black men

In most cases we don’t talk about Arab slavery….

We should as much as we talk Atlantic Slave Trade….

Yet we didn’t learn about Arabs castrated black 

Private parts…

What did they do with them?

This is also remind me of George Washington Carver 

And his slaveowner cut off his penis 

Cos he was afraid that he might rape his daughter…

I heard it’s the reason why his voice was soft…

If that happened, then it’s possible for the melaninated men’s 

Voices to be soft durin the Muslim enslavement…

After all,

Racism wants black men to become females…

It’s not buckbreakin although 

I’m sure Arabs raped black men as well…

However they took their freedom away…

Meanin a choice of havin a family 

They stripped their human rights and dignity to be a man

To be a masculine man…a powerful man….

Now they became Muslims and Allah on their brains 

Sounds familiar, right?

They act like Arabs,

Not only that 

They treated their women badly 

Don’t forget 

Women don’t have a say in their Arabic countries….

No disrespect I’m speakin the truth….

Unfortunately before Christianity 

Black people were forced to be in Islam….

And I did say religion is being used to control people….

If you wanna learn about slavery,

Don’t forget arab slave trade….

Learn how they cut off black penises…

Learn how they snatch their humanity before the white man….

💯✊🏿©️Kai C. 8-25-26