If I ever feel bad

 If I ever feel bad 

If I ever feel bad

About writin the truth on paper…

If I ever cry over and change my mind 

Cos of death threats 

Hypothetically,

Like convincin me to stop writin 

My blackness into metaphors…

Like somebody force me to give up my pen

I’d end up listenin cos of fear

Cos of real life circumstances 

That haunts….

I’d exchange my boldness for somethin

Else…

I’d give away my voice to someone else….

I’d sob heavily…

If this situation happened, 

I might lose my audience who is all about 

Black power…. 

I don’t wanna go back to sambos 

And coons….

Do I really have to say I can’t write 

Black poems anymore?

A certain white power structure could 

Persuade me to keep my words of melanin 

To myself?

I mean I don’t wanna be told not to 

Express myself…

I never wanna be told not to explain 

What racism really is….

Why would you tell somebody what to do

Write especially in the comfort of 

White folks?

Who created this setup anyway?

I write about slavery 

I write Jim Crow 

I write our conditions 

And trauma responses…

I have expand my horizons a lot…

Don’t you know that 

Racism needs to be discussed seriously 

In the black community 

So I write it for black people

Cos it still is in our faces….

I don’t wanna feel bad 

I don’t wanna change my mind 

I don’t wanna apologize 

I don’t wanna stop writin the truth….

I don’t care about white feelings…..

Nor other races’ feelings….

I wanna educate people 

I wanna bring facts…

If I lose friends 

I’ll lose them….

Some people respect me 

For speakin up 

For advocatin black people….

Yes people will say 

Somethin 

People will get offended 

Cos black people 

Are standin up for black people….

And to white supremacy 

They don’t like that very much…

A few racists did say somethin

and they feel uncomfortable 

Black poets shouldn’t care 

What they say, what they think 

What they do…

What I’m sayin is that I don’t wanna be 

A safe negro…..

I do have the right to be a dangerous black poetess

Sharp as a knife….

And a dangerous black poetess do get banned 

I don’t know about being assassinated 

I just know 

When readers enjoy black poetry 

They feel empowered 

They do have the power to do somethin…

I’m aware that 

Not everyone reads poetry…

But the world loves spoken word 

It goes viral….

Yet still unknown….

However if a black poem goes around 

and create spaces of discomfort zone 

For white people, 

They do everything to have an algorithm 

To erase it….

Not even put in school or stores….

They might send emails to a black poet

To complain 

To threaten to hush that voice…

But I want a black poet to hold its bravery tightly 

It’s a risk….

I don’t wanna be in a position 

Where the government follows me around 

Cos of my black poem….

My loved ones don’t need to be

In a dangerous situation 

Cos of my voice…..

If I ever feel bad, 

I could be force to go back to be a 

Safe black person…

To be cautious black poetess….

That’s what I’m afraid of…..

I’m glad i ain’t famous….

I don’t have a book of 

Black power 

That might shake the white society….

I write too much 

I post them online 

And some people read them 

And love it…

Others might have backed away 

Cos of the truth speaks 

It gives tremors…

However 

If I ever feel bad 

If people get into my head 

Constantly,

I might stop 

Honestly 

I might stop completely 

and there will be no more black poems….

It would be ashamed 

And I’m sorry that I have to say this 

I will never know 

If it comes to the point…

I wanna know 

How many black poets have stopped 

Writin black poetry for the sake of 

White people and other races?

Do they feel bad?

✊🏿💯©️Kai C. 6-29-26

White men are jealous...

 White men are jealous…

White men are jealous….

they are….

They’re jealous of black men…

They’re jealous of black dicks….

They think of them in their sleep….

Am I lyin?

First of all, 

White men are scared of black men 

But they harass them….

They killed them

They castrate them 

They turn them into women 

Only for their sake of comfort…

White men use black men 

For wars, for bowin down 

They still believe the brothas 

Will rape their women 

Yet their daughters date them….

White men are jealous….

They made laws not to be a man….

They always call them boy 

Like authority 

Drivin down the police car 

With their equalizers….

Huntin 

Waitin 

Lynchin 

And nobody will say a word…

Cos white men are jealous 

It’s why they created racism 

Just to be on top

Tellin black people to dim our light…..

For them…

Which is to say 

They tell black people 

Speak inferior to themselves 

Especially black men 

While snatchin resources and culture from 

their hands….

Is it true in a way that they tell a black woman 

To cheat on a black man with a white man?

Did they tell her to emasculate him?

Cos again 

White men are jealous…

They always are….

They’ve been in a secret competition 

Actually let’s call them white boys

White boys are jealous….

I wish I knew 

Before 

That 

White boys are absolutely jealous 

Of black men…

There’s somethin beautiful and handsome 

About black men…

Somethin magical 

And these white boys can’t stop talkin 

About them….

Like trump 

He can’t seem get Mr. 44th president Obama 

Out of his mouth….

✊🏿💯©️ Kai C. 6-28-26

Fuck god

 Fuck god 

Fuck Jesus

Fuck god 

Fuck Jesus 

Stop givin white people grace…

Stop giving them a pass….

they will keep harmin y’all 

And harmin y’all and harmin y’all

Where are our strong spines?

Where is our boldness?

No 

Stop forgivin motherfuckers….

Stop doin that!

Don’t give me the Bible…

Black people

Y’all better use that voice 

That base

And your knuckle sandwiches

Why do I post black people fightin back videos?

Just to remind we can’t take their bull shit anymore…

But too many of y'all are too soft

Too kind hearted for white folks 

And other races

Who hate your guts and envy your culture….

I wish 

All black people 

Let go of god 

For once in their lifetime 

The god that white men gave you 

And place yourselves as warriors 

Who whooped their asses in the middle 

Of next weekend…..

Please I beg of y’all

I really want us to have 

Extra dignity and self respect 

For our own race…

Cos their racism 

Has caused it to disappear 

For decades…..

Why do I say fuck god?

Fuck Jesus?

The one Europeans placed in our heads 

And passed it to our generations?

Stop huggin Them 

Stop lovin them

Stop shakin hands with them 

Let me ask y’all this

Do you give a cheater some compassion?

No, right?

Don’t forgive white people

They can never be trusted….

Even white people are sayin the same thing 

But y’all prefer them sayin it cos 

In the back of your minds 

Y’all still think they matter

Y’all still think they speak black power way better than our own people 

And that’s sad…

This sickness got the best of us….

I’m sure 

Y’all prefer white folks 

Spewin facts instead of me

White folks say stop givin them hug

Stop givin them a pass and 

Y’all genuinely listen….

That’s how Stockholm Syndrome works.,..

Am I lyin? 

Y’all prefer a white man sayin the exact same thing 

I’m sayin…

Cos he’s supreme….

It’s a simple acknowledgement…

A sad one….

Fuck god 

Fuck Jesus 

Somebody need to slap the black inside y’all 

And realize

This illness 

The trauma 

That we have and it came from 

Slaveowners 

Colonizers

They abuse our brains and souls 

Way too much to the point 

Our empathy became mental slavery….

Meanin we coddle white folks for centuries 

And cradle them into our arms 

While killin us in the planned genocides….

I don’t give a damn 

If y’all are pissed off at me 

Cos I said fuck god

Cos I curse Jesus out 

If y’all could read or listen 

To black history 

Y’all would do the same….

Their god their Jesus ain’t ready 

They used Christianity to control 

Us….and unfortunately 

Many black people never wanna hear that….

They don’t realize that 

Christianity is a part of 

White power structure…..

Some told me 

To keep that to myself 

But I share non sugarcoated 

Truths on social media.,,.

I respect their beliefs 

However it doesn’t stop me 

From sayin fuck god 

Fuck Jesus 

All I’m doin is to keep 

Pointin out our conditions 

Much as I can 

Cos 

We is sick….

We been sick 

Ever since 

The white authority 

Came to our lands 

And put their laws into place..,,

All cos of jealousy….

✊🏿💯©️ Kai C. 6-27-26