A bigger person

 

A bigger person 

So you tellin me 

That black people should be 

A bigger person 

Get the fuck out of my face….

You tryin to say they should 

Have grace for people with 

Disabilities…I mean white people 

With disabilities…cos after all, 

Black people are ableist now…

You do realize 

Black people with disabilities 

Are still alive, do you give me 

Grace? I’m askin you…

Black people with disabilities 

Deal with racism, too…

And you can be ableist and racist 

At the same time…

Some might not understand 

What’s goin on…

What if i tell you it’s possible 

That some can’t verbalize it 

But they feel somethin is wrong….

Don’t you think their parents 

Or guardians or a staff notice 

Their expressions 

Of gaslight or manipulation or 

Any kind of Abuse that has to do with racism?

Of course…

And you tellin black people to be a 

Bigger person…

Our exhaustion stretches out and long 

Through over 400 years  or more 

Tellin us ignore the harm and move on….

Cos it’s just disability…white people 

With special needs can’t help it…leave it alone 

You tell us…stop being ableist…

Like for real, who taught them racism?

Who’s around them?

Who taught them to hide behind their conditions

As escape from accountability?

One of these days 

White people with disabilities 

Will get punch in the face by someone 

By a wrong black person who doesn’t give shit 

About disability….

And you be like why she got hit in the face?

Why is he in the hospital?

Cos of the disrespect 

Like the n word

Like callin a police 

Like usin white tears

Like spittin

Like all kinds of inappropriate behaviors….

But black people gotta be

A better person….

Get the fuck out of my face 

With that nonsense….

We don’t have to give you 

Any grace….

HOW ABOUT THIS 

WHITE PEOPLE 

BE A BETTER PERSON 

AND TAKE ACCOUNTABILITY FOR 

YOUR FORK TONGUE…

HOW ABOUT THAT? 

HOW ABOUT TEACHIN 

YOUR CHILD NOT TO CALL 

BLACK PEOPLE THE N WORD

AND THE MONKEY 

HOW ABOUT TEACHIN OTHERS 

WITH RESPECT 

BUT NO 

YALL WANNA PROTECT 

WHITENESS…

I DONT TRUST YALL 

WITH YOUR BAD BEHAVIOR 

YOUR VIOLENCE 

IT DOES HAVE CONSEQUENCES 

I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT…

✊🏿💯©️ Kai C.  2-24-26

So I’m ableist?

 So I’m ableist?

Cos i said don’t hide 

Yourself behind your disability 

When I called out racism….

You do remember 

Racism is taught, right?

You do remember 

That white people invented it,

Correct?

You do remember?

You can never forget whiteness…

You can never forget  the envy, 

Envy turns hate towards black people

Cos human beings 

We know right and wrong 

We can be correct 

I have a disability and I know 

How to respect people….

I don’t make my disability 

As an excuse for causin others harm

I get checked 

I was encouraged to say my peace….

I don’t hide myself behind my disableness 

Like a coward….

I can help it…

Let me tell you 

People with disabilities 

Don’t let them fool you 

They know what exactly they’re doin….

If you work with a white person 

Who is a special needs 

Call you a nigger, 

Someone should encourage him or her 

To take an accountability 

Cos the end of the day 

It’s still racism….

They should tell no don’t say 

That unless they have consequences 

I don’t care if they don’t understand 

One of these day they will mess with 

The wrong person 

Who doesn’t care about all that….

The wrong person will punch you in the face….

Also don’t tell black people 

How to feel….

This is why we need to normalize self defense 

More often…

I’m not givin this white guy grace 

He should know better…

He should have taken accountability 

For that harm he caused….

But in his white privilege he should 

Hide himself behind his Tourette’s…

You know damn well 

Racism is on purpose 

It’s everyday choice 

But oh, 

I’m ableist 

Ya ok….

Alright….

I’m a black woman

In a wheelchair 

Is ableist….

Cos I said in the comments section 

Tourette’s is not an excuse for racism…

Not excuse for sayin nigger….

You can say sorry for the humiliation….

You do realize black people have feelings, too…

That word brings trauma out of their bones

And it has so much history 

Terrifyin history….

You can help to take accountability 

Responsibility for the harm 

I understand it’s syndrome 

You can’t control however 

You can apologize or you ain’t really sorry 

Cos you will always use  your disability as your escape 

Ok then I said fake ass white Jesus 

Cos of my arthrogryposis….

I can’t help it 

I’m not sorry….

It’s my excuse….

Give me grace…

Don’t mind me 

I don’t know what’s goin on 

I don’t understand…..

I don’t know better….

I blame arthrogryposis for sayin 

Fake ass white Jesus….

I might have to use that someday…

Let’s see 

How people act….

How people take it….

I wanna see white people  feel 

When I say fake ass white Jesus….

Might laugh 

Might be offended 

Or maybe not take it seriously 

But you get my point….

💯✊🏿©️ Kai C. 2-23-26

Tourette’s

 

Tourette’s 

A white man 

Goddamn white man

In the audience…we ain’t fallin 

For that bull shit….tryin to gaslight 

Us that he can’t help it by sayin

The n word

Nigga 

Cos of his disability….

Cos of his Tourette’s 

He knows better….

It’s not a fuckin excuse….

You see I hate the part 

Where people make special needs 

As an excuse for 

Racism, for presentin whiteness 

For being insecure towards our melanin…

He knows better 

It was at an awards show 

Two black men 

Famous 

Came on stage 

And this white guy 

Said nigga in the back 

Like he meant it with his whole chest 

That tells me inferiority complex was 

 showin through all the luxury 

Tells me jealousy is still on the rise 

It should be black folks’ reminder 

That they so wanna be us…..

And i don’t trust a white person 

Who calls us a nigga, nigger…

We know some of us 

Will give these cavebeasts a knuckle 

Sandwich….they will see stars and birds 

Around their heads….

We’re not puttin up with that….

We’re not puttin up at all…

Tourette’s or not 

They can learn 

They meant it 

No he or she can’t help it 

Cos of disability….

Some laugh like it’s the greatest joke in the world 

Sayin ignore them

Leave them 

Ok but it’s possible that they will meet 

The wrong person….

The wrong person doesn’t give a fuck 

About that white person who doesn’t understand 

What’s goin on….

If a black person with Tourette’s 

Shouts out cracka 

And we make excuses for it 

And we laugh about it

White people 

Would throw a fuckin cow

Makin policy 

Tellin black parents to discipline 

Their kid 

Meanwhile the white guy 

Could get away with it 

No accountability 

Fake ass apology..

Sayin it’s Tourette’s 

No you saw brothers 

Walkin on stage 

And your envy has you blurted 

Out 

“Nigga”

✊🏿💯©️ Kai C. 2-23-26

You tell me

 

You tell me 

Race doesn’t matter 

You tellin me 

That 

When I’ve been an observant

For a while…

Well the world will let you 

Know race does matter….

Whether you believe it or 

Not, it does…

I see race 

I see skin color 

What I study things 

I pay attention 

I do write pieces about it 

Cos from what I see

Is an issue….

I didn’t make it problematic…

White people invented it 

Never want to take credit….

You see 

You’re tellin the wrong person 

That skin color doesn’t matter..

You tell white people that 

They created racism on the planet 

They make whiteness a favorite color…..

I didn’t made it…

White folks did 

So whenever there’s a discussion 

About white supremacy,

Don’t let them gaslight you…..

Don’t let them trick you…

For black people

We taught to believe race and color 

Doesn’t matter 

We taught that as kids 

Til society breaks our silly 

Illusions…we thought dr. King 

Erase racism for good…but 

Racism is still alive and ugly…

The funny thing about is 

That black people can never be 

Racist….we didn’t make it a thing 

White folks did….

They know 

They truly know 

Race and color does matter…

They made it up by themselves 

It’s their system to boss us around 

And worship them….

Never let them fool you….

They be like I don’t see color…

Ya you do….

I’m a black woman…

I’m a human 

Not your pet

Not your entertainment 

And I won’t be fool

For that typical punchline 

Race and color doesn’t matter….

We know what’s goin on…

You ain’t slick….

💯✊🏿©️ Kai C. 2-21-26

The biggest heart

 

Black people 

Has the biggest heart 

Has the golden heart 

For white folks…

They’re trained to be softer 

Extra softer for these demons 

It’s true….

I could call it historical softness 

Another trauma response that stems 

From slavery….

And it’s why  white folks manipulate 

Kindness and forgiveness 

As tactics to weaken black spines….

I get annoyed to see 

My people being so sweet 

After they called us niggers….

I must give a riverboat Montgomery brawl 

Just to remind us that we whoop their ass right back….

But it won’t work…

Cos many of them are so lost 

Our niceness written on the wall 

We learn to be kind and humble 

Be a bigger person 

However, 

Black people do defend themselves 

They slap a devil out and the devil trip over….

We need that energy if necessary…

We need to stop being so soft 

Stop being weak, stop being kind 

We can’t let white folks 

Walk over us anymore 

Like they still own us…

We’re not motherfuckin slaves 

And they remember Slavery 

They still want it 

But got the nerve to say get over it….

They wanna remember or wanna know 

How it feels like a massa….

With that thinkin in their mind 

We should have drop kick their asses 

Back to the caves….

If you think I’m cruel,

I don’t give a damn….

It’s the truth…

I’m not sorry 

I’m not goin to change my mind 

And switch up my words in poetic facts 

Just to make those Neanderthals feel comfortable…

I have them sit and look in the mirror 

And see their so called “superior” character 

Cos I’m tellin you now

White folks throws racism 

In black people’s faces 

All the time…

And we don’t need act of kindness 

Towards them, we should be givin them 

The same energy….what you’re not goin to do 

Is to be disrespectful…if you wanna be violent 

We could be violent, too…

Somehow slave mentality kicks in, 

We become soft and apologetic 

Givin the enemy a hug….

It’s not good…

Especially with the Christianity involvement 

That plays a role…

Black people are sick

We sick

I’m not a doctor 

I don’t diagnose us 

I just recognize the conditions  

That we have as a black race….

One of them is that 

We’re so extremely carin 

For white people too much 

Instead of being compassionate 

Towards one another….

Systematic racism 

Did that to us….

I wish all black people knew…💯✊🏿©️ Kai C. 2-21-26

Crush on a teacher

 

Havin a crush 

On a teacher 

Is normal 

But inappropriate….

I remember 

Those days 

Where I was infatuated 

With male teachers….

And teacher’s aides…

They’re workin 

And I was a student…

I was kinda actin 

Like a teacher’s pet….

However 

It was professional settin

And I regret for goin too far….

I made some of them 

Blush and that was a no no….

I have told everybody 

I had crushes 

I was obvious 

I flirted….

And these things 

Can lead to 

Embarrassments 

Uncomfortable 

Moments

They were flattered 

But  the moments were inappropriate….

And they were at work 

I was at school….

Sayin they were hot 

Out loud 

Was not a good idea….

So all for the young girls 

And ladies 

Out there 

Don’t be inappropriate 

Meanin don’t act on your feelings 

Just cos teacher is fine 

You’re still a child 

He’s a grown man 

Ok?

Too old to be your dad 

Or he could be your older brother….

Also he might have a wife 

Plus there will be 

More crushes 

In your life even in your own 

Age group….

They come and go 

Someday 

You will find a boy 

Who is goin to have a crush 

On you, too….

He might become your boyfriend 

Into your lovin heart…

And you forget all the crushes 

In the past….

Sometimes you gotta say thank you 

Heartbreak for all the important lessons 

You need to know…

I think 

That’s what crushes are for 

To like someone 

And to be crushed by someone 

Is a teachable experience….

It’s normal 

But havin feelings 

For a teacher with authority 

And act on it is inappropriate…

They’re at work 

You’re in school 

Professional settin…

For real for real 

Keep your infatuation 

To yourself….

Away from silly humiliation….

It’s best not to 

Take it too far….

Sweet, flattery 

But unprofessional…

Think about 

Goin to work 

And you have crushes on your boss….

You prolong this behavior 

Somehow 

You have to be reminded 

That this is not your job description…

Think about that…

It’s the same thing…

With student and teacher…

I understand 

Your daydreams 

And pornographic thoughts 

But come on now 

He’s your professor 

You’re a kid….

You should be 

Studyin 

Head in the books

Don’t you got a quiz 

Tomorrow?

💯©️ Kai C. 2-20-26

A moment of weakness

 A moment of weakness 

A moment of weakness 

is a lame ass excuse..

Just to cheat on your girl 

With a sidechick…

Trust

Loyalty 

Respect 

Did you forget that 

On purpose?

Oh yes 

She doesn’t have to 

Find out….

She doesn’t have to 

Know….

Faithfulness throws out 

The window 

If you get caught….

Yet a moment of weakness 

Is for people to excuse their partners’

Bad behaviors…

It’s like how are you ok with this….

So your private parts are 

More important 

Than love,

You listen to temptation 

And sin…

So let me get this straight 

Right?

A moment of weakness 

Is your leader 

Your cock tells you to 

Go to another woman’s pussy 

Or your pussy forces you 

To go to another man’s dick….

Cos to you 

It’s more important 

Than somebody’s waitin 

For you to come home….

And when your lover or spouse 

Finds out, 

They will cry or not 

They will break up with you 

Cos you don’t know anythin

About being faithful 

Being honest 

Moment of weakness 

Blinds you 

You’re delusional 

Do you realize 

Excitement and passion fades?

Plus you don’t love 

That person you cheated with….

You really don’t….

You wanted fun 

You wanted sex

And sparks 

But you couldn’t do that 

With your partner 

Cos romance is gone 

No butterflies in the air

You couldn’t have a long conversation 

About your needs and wants….

After kids and bills and stress 

You didn’t find the time 

To speak to your partner 

About spice things up 

Instead of goin to someone else….

You couldn’t handle yourself 

You couldn’t pull away from infidelity….

But hey 

It’s your choice 

Your decision 

You chose to be with another woman 

Another man 

Cos they’re so young 

And wild 

And free

And driven 

Not the one who truly cares for you….

You don’t love your girl 

You don’t love your guy

Once you step into an affair 

You stop thinkin about your lovers completely…

It’s your “moment of weakness”

I mean forget boundaries 

Forget everythin

You left 

You’re cold

Detach

Dismissal 

and then 

Karma hits

Consequences show up 

Now 

You’re all by yourself 

Cos you 

Fucked up

You realize you fucked up 

Too late…..

You lost somebody 

Who’s so good to you 

Hear the name the voice 

Regrets on walls 

You knew it was wrong 

You didn’t care….

This is what you get for 

For followin your private parts 

And not your brain…

Cheatin will have your ass in the dark 

For a long time….

Do you want that?

You even lie to yourself 

About things will be ok

Convincin you got this under 

Control….you made confusion in 

Your life…you made space 

For hurt to arrive….

Are you proud?

Are you satisfied?

A moment of weakness 

Is no excuse to break your 

Partner’s heart….

You need therapy 

To work on your temptations 

And arrogance….

What’s wrong with the one 

You have?

Do you love your sweetheart?

If you truly do, 

There’s no point of havin

Sidepieces around….

No point of adultry….

Don’t cheat 

Or you face consequences….

💯©️ Kai C. 2-18-26