I married unrequited love

 I married unrequited love….

I married unrequited love…

Believin he turned around 

And actually see me….

Believin he finally loves me….

A look

A gaze

I don’t see him stringin me along….

He began to love me

He began to learn to love me 

His eyes look elsewhere 

I brush it off….

Why does the society pity me?

He said he loves me…

I spent years on waitin 

For him to change my mind…

Maybe The whole time

He did love me 

He doesn’t really know how 

To confess….

Til now 

It’s not a red flag 

To my soul…

Yet deep down 

I knew he never cares 

But I ignored the word placeholder 

I push those thoughts away 

Cos I don’t wanna be alone….

I saw the obligation 

The hesitation in his expression 

I have pulled away 

At first 

But he called to say 

I miss you 

I love you 

Marry me 

And 

I marry him

In my white gown 

He said I do 

Though his heart belongs to 

Someone he wants 

Though he can’t have her….

Why is he focused on her?

Why can’t he be happy with me?

He’s miserable 

Did my tears of decades pressure 

Him to stay in my life?

I don’t want any suitors 

But him….

I ran but his arms are closed 

People told me 

Don’t lose yourself over him 

I did….

I want him to love me 

To stay devoted to me

I chase him around 

Every block 

To have a blessed marriage 

Only to love me….

I give him babies

I give everythin 

And yes I endure…..

A husband never looks at me 

Like I hold stars in the sky….

I married unrequited love…

With this prayer 

And manifestation 

He changed 

He loves me

He came around 

and realized 

The entire time 

He loves me so…

However the world thinks 

Otherwise….

Some say he thinks 

I’m an optional 

Not his dream girl 

That broke the core of me…

I didn’t listen 

I convince him 

Over and over 

That I’m here 

In front of him 

A woman who 

Stood by you 

Through your worst…

I wipe his tears

Those days 

He carefully 

Told me 

He doesn’t love me 

He apologized 

and put a large space between us….

Years later 

He came back 

This time 

He fell in love 

I’ve seen no tricks 

People did

People called me a fool

They asked me 

Do I hear myself 

Yes I did….

I said 

All the pursuin

All the chasin 

Paid off 

And I got him 

Without listenin to your gut feelin

That speaks 

He’s all wrong 

For you…

I turned the other cheek

And love him….

I married unrequited love 

I didn’t pay close attention 

To his mind Driftin to another place…

Everybody told me to wake up 

I said 

He loves me 

Do I trust him again?

Does he really mean it?

Of course he does…

But why is he so sad?

He’s not sad 

He’s in a deep thought…

I married unrequited love 

Cos it took him to realize 

I’m the one 

I’m his soulmate…

Call me blind 

I don’t care 

He loves me

💔©️Kai C. 2-9-26