Takotsubo

 Takotsubo

I can break my own heart 

All over again for you…

Piece by piece 

I can shatter myself completely 

If you just turn around 

To see me 

I can pass away 

And then come back to life 

If you could stand watchin me

I have loved you for so long 

It does slaughter my chest…

People asked me why do i keep cryin

For you, cos I thought I could make you stay

I thought my tears will alarm you 

But it never did….

I never stop and think 

I’m hurtin myself 

I’m stubborn….

Look at my soul 

It’s been prayin for yours to stand near…

Yet I knew deep down you ain’t mine 

I shuff that voice down 

And I got this belief I do get what i want…

And what I want is to love me back…

I beg 

I plead 

I stalk

Just to have you change your mind 

I want you to leave your girl

And fall in love with me instead….

you give me a strong no….

I cry 

I cry harder

You walk away 

Now

I got takotsubo

I got myself there 

and I’m sick 

I can’t survive without you 

Why can’t I be with you?

Why can’t I love you?

Why can’t you love me?

Yet a man 

Watches me 

Givin you my all

Someone told me 

He secretly loves me 

But he’s not you….

Years later 

I’m stuck on you 

I didn’t give him a chance 

I regret cos I let another woman 

Take him…

You see I turn down the other men 

For you 

Still, you don’t acknowledge 

I’m here….

You go with your wife 

Holdin her hand….

Takotsubo 

Has led me 

To hospital 

My heart is unwell….

Can’t move my bones 

Cos I have carried my obsession 

Of us for decades….

I let my Mr. Right slipped on by

I wanted you 

I don’t wanna be alone 

I ignored common sense 

Consequences became my family 

Didn’t 

Learn my lesson 

I didn’t wanna hear that 

You never love me

You love me as a friend 

That was all…

I couldn’t make you admire me 

I couldn’t force you to choose me…

This is why I got 

Takotsubo 

I stay in the patient’s room 

For a long time…

My therapist asked me 

Gently 

Why can’t I let go? 

I didn’t answer 

I just cry

I knew why…

I won’t admit 

Not only to myself 

I won’t heal til 

You love me, too…

I will wait forever and ever 

Til you come and say your apologies 

From your vessel…

~

Is it a broken heart disability?

Some kind of Takotsubo?

Where you never understand 

That somebody doesn’t unrequited love 

Seriously?

You go on and on

Sayin he loves me

He never loves you in that way 

You do know that, 

But in your mind 

It’s not your reality….

I’m not givin you a diagnosis 

I’m speakin of observation 

Cos people don’t like pain 

So they will gaslight and manipulate others 

To love them back….

Like a love spell…

However they use words and actions 

To create different love bombs….

I feel like there’s somethin wrong with you 

A deception on your part….

Why would you wanna waste your time and energy 

On someone who doesn’t feel the same way?

There are too many people on earth 

You forget that there are good men who want to date you 

To court you to marry you….

Don’t give up cos it’s possible….

You just have to let your crush go for good…

I know you don’t wanna hear that 

I don’t, either 

Though it’s unhealthy you create fantasies and high expectations 

On someone who rarely looks your way….

Stop being hopeful about that person who will hold your hand….

You don’t deserve Takotsubo….

You don’t need to break your heart over and over 

For a man whose eyes are on his woman…

And why the fuck would you be a sidechick?

Are you that desperate?

Girl, bye….

It won’t work 

He will never pick you….

You’re goin to get sick 

Not just in your mind 

But your body as well…

You end up at the hospital 

And maybe wards 

You can’t fathom that this man 

Ain’t goin to be your Romeo forever….

Sorry but not sorry

Ya it’s harsh 

This is the truth….

Nothin you can do 

But to take care of yourself 

Start lovin you 

Start healin your inners 

Movin on is the most healthiest thing you can do…

Maybe one day 

You find Mr.  Right 

Who loves you too…

This time there’s no beggin

No Takotsubo at that…

💯♥️©️ Kai C. 5-15-26