I don’t wanna feel guilty

Honestly 

I don’t wanna feel guilty 

About writin black poetry….

Cos black poetry is the real truth….

You can’t just make me feel bad 

About it….. 

I write black poems cos I feel inspired 

I write black poems cos I watch black power 

On YouTube and other social platforms…

I write black poems cos I read black history books 

I write black poems cos I love my people…

Don’t try to guilt me for writin my blackness on paper….

I’m not usin my race….

I’m humanizin my race…..

I don’t give a shit if I get banned 

I don’t care if someone hushed me 

Truth will stay out…

So what 

I got white friends

So what 

I’m surroundin by white folks

Do you have to bring up the past of 

Internalized anti blackness?

Like I want to be white?

Like I like white boys?

That’s the time I had no idea 

About white supremacy….

I thought white supremacy is just the kkk

But it’s a system all over the world….

I decided to educate myself 

Black history interests me 

That’s how I started to ink black poems more often 

And I don’t wanna feel guilty about it….

I don’t wanna be told not to post my black poems down….

I know people get uncomfortable 

They ruined friendships….

I didn’t stop….

Some readers stay readin 

Black people poetically 

Many back away 

Cos they scared of the truth….

I know where I sit 

I know where my voice leads

I never need to be famous for 

Being a great black poetess

I need eyes and ears with an open mind and soul 

To feel, to heal a certain trauma….

To trigger to laugh to agree

And disagree….

I don’t wanna feel guilty for 

Helpin people who look like me….

There’s always a problem 

When you stand up for your black people

Always a problem cos 

Some part of the belief 

Is that black people are not humans….

We’re humans…..

Not the three fifths….

It’s a white supremacy idea to convince 

The world we’re caged animals…

I’m writin another black poem to erase that completely…

And i can’t be guilt trippin for that….

Why would I want to feel that way?

I don’t wanna feel guilty 

I don’t wanna stop writin and postin

I may not be a legend but I reach people 

Far ahead…..

That’s enough….

That’s ok

Plus if I ever get too famous 

For black poetry 

I might be banned 

From school library 

Or other bookshops 

Even on Amazon 

Even publishing companies might cancel my 

Scripts….

Cos you never know…..

I never know 

Yet it never stops my pen

My on screen typewriter….

I do reach a few people on the down low….

Don’t make me feel guilty 

Don’t make me feel bad 

Cos I defend my people in my poetic lines….

✊🏿💯©️Kai C. 6-21-26