i gave my heart

i gave my heart
well maybe not in words 
but through my actions i kinda did
gave myself away
cos i got too comfortable around  you
and i am feeling you 
i gave my trillion beats away
to you
all the way to you
when i heard you got a girl
and i cried
cos the feelings of obviousness and distances
between us
the feelings of my great situations with you and
even special friendships between us
this type of real feelings for you
has made me dream
has made me want you even more
and i also let my feelings get in the way
making me care for you so much
that i always realize this is
what i get for having a mega mega crush on a guy
and always, always ending up
with a broken heart
but at least i didn't say a word
just the small gestures and  the simple ways i do to make you smile
that's all
there are some young ladies out there in the world
who is  like me
who can fit into these shoes 
that were made for stepping across the borders
of having a mega mega crush  on someone
and then act so simple a little too obvious
when young ladies like me who  hangs around 
and flirts way around with debonair young men
like yourself
yet i gave my heart away
far away
cos i feel like i have to
it was my extinct
that i have to show you the real me
only through actions of our bittersweet friendship
and somehow you 
 broke my heart
in a away that the silence soothes my breath
when i found out that you already had a lady
right after 2 days of our dance
though you're not there 
when i heard
and i didn't ask you if you have one
cos i don't wanna cry
i don't wanna be upset
i shouldn't let that bother me
but it did
it did to my heart
so i didn't tell you
that i cried 
cos i like you very much

©2008 Kai C.


polona said...

this is kind of sad... but in a beautiful way

Kai C. said...

thank you

Anonymous said...

Hey Kai, I see youre doing your thing girl...and thanks for the love on my page.

Stay sweet

J. Andrew Lockhart said...

wow! a lot to say in this one!
this guy's not worth it, though. didn't know a good thing when he had it. :)

Kai C. said...

thank you!

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Cynthia said...

Yes, I know when I get too comfortable around someone that
attracts me, it can become
obvious, and my heart is often
already lost.

Thanks for putting these feelings
into sweet words Kai.