I don’t wanna be an experiment

 

I don’t wanna be  an experiment 

Or another human subject 

Especially when I’m black…

I don’t wanna be treated like 

An animal, I’m not an animal….

My soul is not a thing…

A thing to have a project on….

You can see why black people 

Has a hard time goin to doctor….

Cos of bad history, cos of racial ideologies 

Still live there…I don’t blame them….

And I’m sure there are pregnant black women 

Out there who complain goin to the hospital…

We heard the news of what happened….

We convince our brothas to go for a checkup…

You tell medical apartheid is still breathin….

I’m aware of things changed but still the same…

There are some doctors who still think 

Melaninated folks feel no pain….

There are nurses who would ignore our 

Screams and let us passed away….

This is racism,

Racism in real life 

In present time…

It’s why black people hesitate 

Or refuse to go…

I can’t blame them….

Honestly 

I think we have our own clinic 

And plant our medicine from the earth….

Plus we’re suppose to connect with nature 

However the colonization has removed our bodies 

Away from it….

I get a sense that we were taught to hate 

Nature and trust the authoritative white doctors…

And their pseudo science….

And I think we’re taught not to believe 

In black healers…

We’re so far removed….

I don’t wanna be 

An experiment 

I don’t wanna volunteer 

Cos what if does somethin happen 

To me in the name of white supremacy?

In the name of so called black inferiority?

It won’t happen….

I’m just sayin 

These things happened 

I bet they’re still happenin 

In government’s private hands 

And have no clue about it….

Think about missin 

Black people randomly 

Right? 

Men, women, children 

I usually post their flyers on 

My social media 

Cos i know their loved ones 

Are worryin sick….

If I go missin somewhere 

I could be dead in a cold laboratory 

And I would want someone who helps my family 

To post  my unknown whereabouts everywhere….

I don’t wish for my sake 

I’m just givin a difficult reality 

Of what’s actually goin on…..

Black people are still experimentin on, 

They’re still being treated as subspecies…

Nobody talks about this 

A lot…. I never had experience 

With the medical doctors 

However  other people who look like me 

Have bad experiences with them…

I heard the news, it’s not fair…

For an example,

Do you remember a white nurse who broke 

The bones of small black babies?

They didn’t get a chance to see their mommies and daddies…

They didn’t get a chance to have a long life…

And it’s never okay….

To me 

Experiments on black people 

Is a big time abuse…..

Broken bones 

Ignore their screams 

Their ignorant narratives of they feel no pain….

And all of this becomes a pattern 

A broken record…

Regardless of American apologies

They’re not really sorry….

I really hate to say this 

Medical  system still is killin black people….

Childbirth of black women are still dyin

Black men are still refusin to go to their doctor appointments…

It’s why it’s good idea to learn and study how to create your garden of 

Medicine, healin our bodies before we go to emergency….

It’s my thoughts

My conclusions

I’ve been studyin racism 

Real close in depth on my own….

Only to write for the people who need to be 

Aware and informed….

I also want to have discussions 

Cos this is important…

Especially for black people….

✊🏿💯©️ Kai C. 9-13-25

I am reading a book called Medical Apartheid by Harriet A. Washington. It’s about how medical field treated black people as subhumans. It’s a historical context of physician and scientist abuse that has been passed down from from slavery into today. They talked about Tuskegee syphilis study on black men. They even talked about the myth of crack babies. It made me write this piece because I was usin my critical thinking skills. It also pissed me off.  The book is good and informative. Maybe other people should read it, too. Black folks should read this.