Ok

 Ok 

Ok 

I endure 

I stay 

Even tears become long rivers

Even pain lives in my chest 

I say 

Ok 

When you disrespect me 

When you go fuckin another woman...

I should be in your shadow 

While your pride takes you anywhere....

Ok

I hid my frowns behind my smiles..

My heart broke into million pieces 

For decade I linger in the background noise

I did what you said 

You said good girl 

I know you wouldn't leave me 

You're weak....

You have nowhere to go...

You can't live without me

So you said ok...

Look 

I'm holdin my mistress's hand 

You keep prayin for me 

You keep hopin I will stay

But I never promised your heart...

I trained you well 

I trained you so well 

You can't go anywhere 

When you say ok 

I got my power my control 

You obey 

That's what I want 

Like a dog....

You're a fool...

Ok, 

I lost myself in the broken marriage 

I watched you makin love to another woman 

And have a baby... I build a man like you 

While I don't remember who I am...

My position is a placeholder....

I thought this was love 

Thought this was alright 

Deep down 

It's not 

I ignored that 

I wanted you to change....

But Mr. Wrong stays the same....

When truth bombs came explodin

I get all defensive....

Tellin the world he will wake up and see me 

Only me

I'm afraid nobody will love me

Did Mr. Right pass me by?

Did I miss him?

I said ok to that guy who doesn't love me

I have no dignity and respect for myself to walk away 

Why?

Still thinkin it's love?

No it's not....

Love is not sufferin, 

Love is warm love is peace

I knew that 

Yet I keep dreamin of my wicked husband turns into 

A Prince charmin again....

Never want our love story to rip out and burn..

So I wait 

And wait 

And wait 

Like a fool 

For him to stop lovin another woman 

And come back...

For years I said ok

To the man who failed me

And I stay 

I lost myself for him 

I don't want divorce 

He should come back to me 

And he's thinkin of me 

While he's with her

I told other young women to stay 

While he cheats 

Ensure  the heartache 

Never walk away 

Just be there when he comes back 

Somebody said I'm a bad example 

For tellin young ladies to endure 

For  not lettin them know their worth...

Ok seems like bendin to his will....

When you bend to his will

Do it his way 

Your whole body is havin an allergic reaction 

You're too ill...

Just like my body is full of his germs and toxins...

I never heal 

I just stay

My ok pleases him

Wait 

And wait 

And wait 

And wait 

And he never returned....

💯💔©️ Kai C. 1-17-26