Ode to self hate black women

 Ode to self hate black women

Ode to self hate black women

In the comments section….

Y’all could be bots or real 

Humans who encourage a 

White man to get a rifle 

Just to kill a brotha…a man 

Who looks like y’all…

Have y’all ever thought 

About your fathers?

Your grandfathers? 

Your great grandfathers?

Your uncles?

Your cousins?

Even your grown sons?

If a healthy male figure 

Who is black like y’all  

In your life saw that 

Or heard y’all say those 

Things or maybe you don’t 

Have one…

All y’all know is white men 

Y’all truly believe in your soul 

They’re more romantic than 

Black men….

The fact y’all wanna be a 

White woman, so called damsel in 

Distress….

Cos y’all see that shit 

In movies….

I used to have 

Propaganda and 

Environment to brainwash 

Me…. I used to think 

Black boys were ugly 

Cos I saw white boys 

Surroundin me….

For some reason 

I didn’t think there’s nothin 

Wrong with it 

But deep down 

The word of mouth 

Places a heavy truth 

Upon my chest bone….

I didn’t know 

I was self hatin me

I didn’t know anythin 

About white supremacy 

At the time…

Racism has me internalized 

To hate my own brown shade…

I always thought 

Skin color didn’t matter…

I did like black boys 

Though I have liked white guys

More….

Yet I didn’t encourage 

White guys to kill a black boy

Like y’all…..

When black history 

Reveals itself 

And psychology has opened my eyes 

And interracial relationships showed its

True colors..

I realize it was dead wrong to say 

Those things about black men 

Black boys…

It took a while to notice that 

Their handsomeness

Their kindness 

Their greatness

And that we’re on the same slave ships 

Together….

That white man  has made us 

Hate each other so deeply….

And if i didn’t know about 

Black history,

And if internalized self hate gets stronger

I’d be like one of y’all 

Y’all self hate black women

If y’all truly think 

Black men are ugly 

What do y’all think of 

Yourselves?

Y’all have melanin skins 

Y’all have similar reflections 

Y’all both have culture 

Why do we have to divide?

Why do we have to listen to that white man?

He ain’t nothin but trollin…

Our wrong choices 

Are followin him….

A lot of us knew what we were 

Doin…

Others have no idea….

And this is why racism needs to be talked 

About….cos it comes with generational curses 

And mental illnesses….

It comes with whitewashin situations 

Like y’all who prop a white man who needs 

A fake protection from black men 

Cos in his mind they’re dangerous…

I’m glad 

I’m not one of y’all 

Again y’all could be bots 

Tellin him to get an equalizer 

To shoot the brothas in the street 

While datin a black woman….

Cos 

Ode to self hate black women

I wish y’all could stop speakin 

Negative to yourselves 

Stop internalizin 

Stop waitin for a white man 

To call you beautiful…

Not all black men are 

Monsters…just cos 

Y’all had a bad experience 

With them, it doesn’t mean they are 

All terrible….

Racism did that to us….

It’s still brainwashin….

How to break this cycle of 

I don’t need a man 

Is to learn your history 

Learn psychology 

Be an observer 

Look within yourself 

Ask yourself 

Why do I hate black men?

Why do I hate myself?

There’s nothin wrong with 

Being black….

It’s the society that thinks 

Ass backwards….

I didn’t ask hard questions 

To myself 

I had flashbacks of 

My younger self 

Sayin I shouldn’t say 

Cruelty to black boys…

It wasn’t nice…

What if I say cruelty 

To myself?

And when you learn about what 

Racism did to us,

You truly recognize that 

Our race has the lowest

Self esteem….

We still have brothas and sistahs

Askin to sit at white folks’ table….

I’m sorry 

Black boys 

Black men 

For y’all ugly 

Y’all ain’t ugly 

Y’all are debonair 

Y’all deserve to live a full life 

Y’all matter…

I don’t think whitewashin is an excuse 

For my mean words…

Though it is…

We as black people

Has involve ourselves into 

Proximity of whiteness….

For the self hate black women 

There are consequences of 

Your bad influences on a white man 

To slaughter your own people 

Just to be close to him

Y’all do realize y’all are involvin

Yourselves in your genocide, right 

Y’all just don’t care about 

About your demise….

That’s really sad….

Y’all are willin 

Murder your nephews 

Your brothers 

Your friends 

The black men who loves black women

The black men y’all don’t know…

Deep down 

Yall know damn well 

They ain’t violent 

But y’all chose an enemy 

Who is envious of black men….

I bet y’all don’t even know 

That…..

I hope y’all don’t tell 

Your white boyfriends to kill 

Black men in real life…

Like I said 

Y’all could be ai 

Typin your hate for black men 

Like it’s a next level of 

Self hate,  

How it turns into an agenda….

Y’all don’t see that 

This white guy is usin

Black women to agree with him…

He’s trollin….

He said he’s afraid 

Afraid of what?

✊🏿💯©️Kai C. 8-16-26