“Condition” of fear

 “Condition” of fear

As black people

We do have fear 

Deep rooted in our dna

That’s been passed down 

To our babies to our grand babies 

To our great babies….

It goes on and on and on….

Fear birthed from slavery 

To Jim Crow

Actually where colonizers came 

As kind missionaries and 

Then became the cruelest villains 

On earth….

I’m doin my best 

To explain in simple terms 

As possible….

We’re scared to remove 

The white man from his throne 

He already poop upon 

A highest seat…

And we’re afraid to take him 

Out cos we’re trained to be

Frightened of him…..

You have seen movies 

And books about mistreatment 

Of our people….if we were to get 

Bold enough to challenge and 

The good ol boys we get whooped 

And killed…..it’s started off where 

Europeans captured and divided 

Black families and how it grows 

On plantations….so much abuse 

So much violence on melaninated brains

It becomes trauma….

Fear is a trauma response….

I hope you know that…

It’s a syndrome 

A mental disability….

A disorder 

An illness 

And we have carried 

It through generations 

For decades….

Black people murmur other 

Black people to be quiet about 

Racism, about being too black 

In front of white folks….

As protection….

I heard white folks 

Are too comfortable 

With us not speakin 

About this topic….

But if we talk about black history 

On February 

We either talk little or not at all

Some of us hesitant when we 

Want their validation…

That’s part of our lifetime brokenness…

It sustains in the role of fear….

“Condition” of fear

That’s what we have 

Yet some of us have 

Learn to stand on business 

For what’s right….

We learn to fight back if necessary….

Still 

The “Condition” of fear

Still lingers our bones

There are black people 

Who will back away from a white man 

And do what he says….

Others are like givin him knuckle sandwiches 

To his face 

Sayin who the fuck are you talkin to….

When I watch black people 

Have self respect and dignity 

Have to defend themselves 

It feels like our “Condition” of fear

Is all gone…like it’s healin….

Like ancestors came through 

Our smacks and punches…

Honestly,

We do wanna whoop 

White man’s ass and his woman 

Even a white child…..

Cos who the fuck They think they are….

Am I lyin?

We’re trained to be 

Scared of the white man

We’re trained to think 

He’s a god….

Do you remember 

Fairly odd parents?

There was a tv movie on 

Nickelodeon 

There was a teacher 

Who stole fairy powers 

And he ruled the world 

And everyone was bow down to him 

I think they were afraid of him 

I think his name was Crocker, right?

It’s givin me that…

White supremacy gave me that vibe 

And the system has taught us 

To be scared, to tiptoe around him

Crocker is a skinny white dude….

With glasses….

Did he have a weapon?

I don’t know….

But in the real world 

White men have weaponization

It made them feel strong like men

When really without guns

They couldn’t hide their insecurities….

Black people 

Are beginnin to see this…

White men are cowards

They’re more afraid of us….

“Condition” of fear 

That we have as a 

Collective…cowardice is 

In our genes unfortunately 

Cos we still feel like 

We’re on plantations 

And we’re not, it depends 

On any situation we’re in….

For  more than 400 years 

Of slavery we still haul that 

Mental illness, the damage of 

Foldin, kneelin, bendin to the 

White man…

You see in 

Coons being all shook 

To the point they apologize 

For being a warrior…

For speakin up for black people…

To me

That’s insane 

That’s insane that black people 

Has to live like that especially when 

They’re workin with big industries….

Ha, that white man 

It’s givin Crocker 

That cartoon 

With the glasses 

He took over the world 

Make everybody afraid 

Cos he thinks he’s superior….

It did happened in real life 

Except he didn’t have fairy dust 

He got equalizers

And fork tongues 

To colonize the whole damn planet….

Art imitates life

Life imitates life 

And that fairly oddparens 

Gave you a real history….

It went over a lot of heads….

What do you think?

We say we’re goin to stand up 

To the white man…

But many of us have the heart 

Of bravery 

No spine…

“Condition” of fear 

Is still rooted 

Deep in us….

I think we should get rid 

Of it

If we wanted to 

Stand up for ourselves….

If we truly want to 

Get rid of racism 

That lives in our breaths

We should train ourselves 

Not to hesitate 

Not to be afraid 

Not to be a punk…

It should be a reminder 

That white supremacy is full of cowardice 

And insecurities….

we shouldn’t be afraid of our enemies 

They’re actually afraid of us….

✊🏿💯©️ Kai C. 3-19-26